Reset me baby

I'm beginning to make a list in my head of things I'd like to get done by the time I turn 25.
I didn't realize that I may have a breakdown of sorts once I hit the quarter century mark.  Think about it, you've been on the planet for how long now?  I know I'm going to have one of those, "Let's look at what you've done with your life even though you know it's not good idea to do that" moments.  I imagine I'll get quite trashed and puke in some bushes somewhere seconds before having this revelation.

I am both excited and terrified at these prospects.  First because I do think I've done a lot.  I finished high school and college(blah) but more importantly, I've traveled a ton, ran a marathon, partied in LA, watched the sunrise in Vegas, puked on a rooftop in the middle of San Francisco at 6 in the morning after Halloween.  I've been to Coachella three times, and done an ample amount of camping, adventuring, laughing, and growing.  Growing I think will be the theme of these past years.. both physically and mentally.  I know I will not grow or change as much as I have in this time.. and I will cherish that.  From the little girl running around in the back woods of Cicero in New York to the young lady who flew to Japan alone and looked out the window and thought.. man I know I can do this!  From the five year old who started crying when my mother bathed me.. and when she asked why I went on this whole diatribe about Martin Luther King Jr. to the twenty one year old peeing behind a willow tree because the traffic was so bad and she couldn't hold it anymore..  I only have a few months left before this epic b-day of sorts and I plan to enjoy and reflect.. while loosing ten pounds and getting ripped :P  Yes, I'd like to shed some pounds so I look super great and feel better about my body and have one less thing to grumble about as I age..

Besides that summer has started off with a kick start, I have one internship, another hopefully next week (finger's crossed) then editing the documentary AND planning a trip to Spain.. all while attempting to save money and get rid of a shit ton of my stuff.  I'm really cutting down this time.. like majorly..

These past few months have bared down on me.. time to hit the reset button and will be doing so this weekend :3

What up Summer?

Dude Hocus Pocus is still a good movie.
It makes me miss Halloween.

I can't wait for my stupid glands to stop swelling and to get back into the swing of things.
I start my internship tomorrow and I'm actually stoked for it.. I have a feeling it's going to be a good stepping stone and it's a little different from what I've done in the past but everyone seems chill and I'll get some marketing and pr under my belt as well.

Finally about to get off my ass, get to work, finish the documentary, and hope this summer goes by quickly.  Then I can jet set off to Spain and add a few more stamps to my passport :D

The glass appears to be fully drained.

My horoscope for the weekend began with said statement from above.
And it couldn't be more right.
I think I've just been pushing things I need to face full on out of my head and under a rug.  And it's overspilling.  I guess you just don't realize how things can get to you without you really knowing it.  And then one day it smacks you in the face.

But I don't want to continue to run from things.  I feel most people do.  They find that alcohol cupboard and hide in it until they wake up ten years later and realize they've been running from all their problems all along which has just snowballed into a giant problem monster.  I like to face things head on and deal with it now.  These things that keep me up at night.  That crawl through my mind and don't allow me to sleep.  I just need to figure out how.. writing helps a little.  It was tough going through it alone but sometimes I just need to get through my own head by myself and really think what the problems are why they make me feel that way and what I need to change to improve them.  I'm my own therapist.  And a lot of people's therapist it seems.  For some reason people have always opened up to me.  But I don't really really open up to everyone else.  Maybe because I think half the time my problems are petty compared to other people's.  And really I don't have much to complain about.  But to me, they're really tough.  I think people should stop judging the caliber of other's woes and just realize that to those people it's everything.  I mean, most people are worried about number one at most times.  And there in lies the true reason for conflict to a lot of people, we often forget to think about other's feelings or reactions before we decide to do something or say something.  Yeah we can get a laugh at other's expenses which we often always do.

But to know a man aren't you suppose to walk one thousand miles in their shoes first?